Fork and Knife.

I figured something out
I try to contain my own hell
but it just ends up spilling out into everything I touch
I need to deal with it
I need to put everything behind me

I spend too much time thinking
and not enough living
I spend too much time wishing
and thinking of what things could be like
to make them that way

So far today I've spent my time collecting pieces of paper from around my room
some have whole stanzas written
and some are disjointed similes.

Your lies are the prettiest when they're stuck behind your eyes
your words are the clearest when they unfold from behind your reluctant teeth
my tears are not forthcoming
I have my own lies
my own secrets
yours are never enough
I take your empty words back and disassemble them in my head
I never really cried for you
You were never a loss to morn
You wish you were more than those empty eyes that stare back at you
You wish you were more than the lies you've told


and to make things interesting
top 3 cds ever:
Brand New - Deja Entendu
Jimmy Eat World - Bleed America
Everclear - So Much For The Afterglow

Deja Entendu has a been a favorite for 5 years, Bleed American for 6 years, and So Much For The Afterglow for almost 11. I guess it takes a lot for a cd to become a favorite like lots of long nights on repeat.